Can meeting someone be so hard?

Why is it so hard to meet someone?

Well maybe today I got my answer. Should a girl be worried and stop making friends with guys? Having too many guy friends a big issue for girls to be in a relationship? I don’t understand.

But well today I understand that being a girl is just not easy, having friends is not being easy.

When you are single for such a long time, instead of having boyfriends you tend to have a lot of guy friends. Which is not bad either. But I guess to start a new relationship, the guys do get insecure which is fair on their part too.

But still today I feel so lost and sad about whatever is going on with me!! Because of all this, I am not able to be with someone that I am interested in, I am not able to confess to people, the guys are not able to see that I see them differently.

What should I do? I’m in a mess right now.

Should I instead cut down talking to my friends, or how should I handle this? I am on a stage where I can’t find an answer to all these questions at the moment. I am clueless and helpless.

Maybe I’m wrong maybe I’m right? Just want some path or someone to guide me through.

Well I am just trying to think myself too, what would someone else have done if they were in my position. But I’m out of answers. I don’t know!! I’m lost, lonely, upset, and not good and I do admit all of that.

I am happy for the people getting in relationships around me, my best friend messaged me today in the morning saying she got official with the guy she was seeing and I think my sister will get official too. I’m happy for them but so sad for myself that I am looking down on myself right now that I can’t be with anyone. I agree it gets hard with time, but getting answers to all of our questions is something what life teaches us, as we have to find out own answers in any situation we are in. There are different commitments, priorities and what not, but it's just with the time and the experiences that we all understand and learn from them. Just maybe let's take one step at a time, thats what I can suggest to myself at the moment.